Saturday, 11 December 2021

Argh at Advent

 I’ve got a confession. I hate advent.

I hate advent cos its busy and it is all about a baby. Cos everywhere you go its images of happy children, pregnant women and just all the pressure of getting the right gifts and the best time with your perfect family. Now I don’t know about yours but my family ain’t perfect.

I hate advent cos there isn’t a day when I’m not reminded of my childlessness, this week we even celebrated the conception of the Blessed Virgin Mary – who I’ve learnt may also have been a virgin birth cos that is how she had no sin, who knew potential parents having sex was such a sinful thing – Augustine I believe, most things about the shame of sex are his fault! Or maybe its whoever invented original sin, oh wait, that’s Augustine too!

I hate the busyness and stress of advent, I have absolutely no idea what to get my husband as a present, mostly cos room is tight, cos we have the disposable income to buy what we want and need throughout the year and this year just like last buying experiences seems like they might be a waste – we still haven’t yet seen Rachel Parris from my Christmas present in 2019! (fingers crossed for attempt 4 and March 2022!)

I say all this knowing that I love Christmas, I love babies and I love Jesus. But argh the waiting and preparing is just a lot, don’t worry I’m going back to my essays now.

For my other blog about being childless at this time of year check out this link.

Saturday, 4 December 2021

A go at some poetry

A few weeks ago I had to write a poem in class. It's a pantoum so actually made of 8 lines written twice in a pattern. It's a long time since I've tried to write poems and I was quite impressed how it worked out. 



I often wonder how minister me will be different

Cos she takes with her all of her past

She loves nothing more than to work with people 

The pastor, presider but also wife and friend


Cos she takes with her all of her past

Along with hopes for a future that may never come to pass

The pastor, presider but also wife and friend

The multifaceted parts of a whole


Along with hopes for a future that may never come to pass

She stands in the present with those that she serves

The multifaceted parts of a whole

The minister she's always meant to be


She stands in the present with those that she serves

She loves nothing more than to work with people

The minister she's always meant to be

I often wonder how minister me will be different.